I found this in my draft folder, the content years old. Why didn’t I ever hit “publish”? Here it is now, an important stone of remembrance for me.

I know I should feel happy at Christmas - the lights, the decorations, the meaning.
I know this. That’s what makes it so hard.
I don’t like Christmas at all.

I read the symptoms of COPD and yes, it’s quite clear that’s what Christmas does to me.
Shortness of breath
Chest tightness
Lack of energy

When does it end?